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Productivity Pr0n and Self-Revealing Ick

I was looking over some various productivity Pr0n when I came across a nice bit of advice for maintaining focus and productivity: Care.

It seems so simple, but for someone who has been going through mild clinical depression, it's really difficult. Oh, yeah, I skipped that part. I've been going through mild clinical depression. No bad thoughts about hurting me or others, no medicine; Just a lot of apathy towards mostly everything. It runs in the family. Thanks, parents. ;P

Caught up? Good. Lets continue.

So there are some things I do care about. Intensely, as a matter of fact:
  1. My family
  2. My friends
  3. The socio-economic plight of the indigenous tribes of Madagascar.
Granted, two of those are pretty far ahead of the third.

So, I am trying to figure out what I want to do next, since I'm more or less in a forced reset mode. Self re-invention is an awkward and somewhat overly revealing process. Ever take a long, honest look at yourself without the sugar-coated happy filters? Ugh! There's a lot of, as the open source geeks say "Cruft" around some pretty decent code. Time to take out the trash on my psyche.

So rather than blog about some project that I want to finish (and likely won't) because I think it's interesting, I think I'll just write about something I am guaranteed to finish. Crap I've just done and care about (see earlier link) because it helps me get what I want.

I'll let you know if I actually do anything.



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